Monday, July 28, 2008

Bittersweet

A few days after my last upbeat post, my attitude took a nosedive. I know exactly what caused it too. We got updated pictures and measurements on our little girl. We had some friends that were in Kyrgyzstan picking up their children (yeah!!) and they promised to get some new pictures of the waiting children. I was so excited about seeing her face again and finding out how much she has grown. I was checking my email every five minutes to see if they had arrived. Late last week we finally got them. I was overcome with emotion. There was that little face that I would recognize anywhere - that little button nose and rosebud lips. I fell in love all over again. We also got some new measurements for her; holy cow she is one big girl! She seems to be gaining about two pounds every month and we can definitely see that in her big cheeks. Even her arms have little fat rolls in them. We are beyond thrilled to have these updates on her. We treasure every little detail we receive. However I was surprised to find myself feeling a little melancholy about these new pictures. I am SO happy that she is healthy and growing. But it is so bittersweet to see her getting bigger over there by herself, while we are sitting here, desperate to pick her up and bring her home.
I am praying we hear some news this week. Hopefully the judge will be back from vacation today and he'll schedule our court case ASAP. Then our 30-day wait after court will begin and we can make plans for going to pick up our little girl. In the meantime, we have one more week of summer vacation to enjoy.

5 comments:

Monica said...

*sigh* ugh. That really has got to be the worst just having to wait and seeing her growing while you can't be there with her. That seems to be so common with Kyrgyz adoption these days and is probably the worst difference from the Kazakhstan system. I hope that you hear something positive VERY soon and can start looking forward to a specific time to go bring her home!

Rachel said...

I know the feeling...so helpless. I pray things go quickly this week and her court takes place!

Only one more week of summer vacay? and then school starts? Wow, that's early! It doesn't start here until August 18.

Betsy said...

Allison, I hope that things will go quickly for you and that you will be on a plane back to Kyrgyzstan in no time. I cannot imagine how hard the wait is for you and your family.
I'm sorry we were not able to get any pictures of your little girl as well. We obviously did not spend as much time at the orphanage as originally planned!
Keep us posted - I hope you have wonderful progress to report very very soon!!

Anonymous said...

I know how you feel. I would give anything to have those first 9 months with Sophie. There's a lot of joy in adoption, but much sorrow too. It's an enraging thing to see how the paperwork and red tape keeps those children in the orphanages longer than they have to be...for no good reason.

I'm wishing the rest of this process goes QUICKLY for you (and for baby girl). Can't wait until she's home and in your loving arms.

~ Joanna

Anonymous said...

Waiting for your baby isn't fun. Adam was only 12 days late & I was a real creep about it. But now you know she is yours. Enjoy the quiet moments you have now, when she gets home, they'll be over. I enjoyed luch today, Thanks.