Friday, February 29, 2008

Anxious

I'm not sure why but this past week has found me extremely anxious about the adoption. Not in a bad or depressed way; I guess I should call it more anticipation that anxiety. I don't know if it's because we have several good friends traveling to meet/pick up their children (both in Astrakhan and in Kyrgyzstan). We love following their journeys and hearing updates about their travels, but it is bringing up all of those memories of how exciting/overwhelming/exhausting the trips can be. Seeing pictures of the new families simply makes my heart melt. I'm sure knowing that we're near the top of the list isn't helping my patience level either.
Whatever the reason, this week has definitely brought a new level of anticipation to this process. I "feel" like something may happen soon. I have a need to finish so many of the projects that I've been putting off. I have a major case of nesting going on. I'm dying to start on the nursery, but I've promised myself that I'm leaving that project to undertake between our trips.
We've been on this journey for well over 18 months and have been waiting to meet our HotDog for almost 15 months (in both Russia and Kyrgyzstan). I feel almost a physical ache to hold my little girl in my arms.
The Chipmunk and I are heading to Atlanta this weekend to visit family. It will give the Monkey some good one-on-one time with his daddy, and will hopefully get my mind off of this craziness for a little while.

11 comments:

Becky and Keith said...

Anxious is a great way to describe what you are feeling! Sounds like your mommy instint knows things are about to happen. Waive to me while you're in Atlanta! I hope you have a great family visit.

Maria said...

Have a fun and safe trip!!!

Christen & Frank said...

I don't blame you. I'd be acting like there were ants in my pants if I were you. I can't wait for the big news!! I think you're right - it's just around the corner!

Have a fun trip with the Chipmunk :)

Troy and Rachel said...

A trip sounds like a great plan for you. Hopefully it will help ease the anxiousness. Have a good time.

adoptedthree said...

I know how it feels even though I had two great boys, there was a dull ache for a little girl that was not complete until I found her. It was so worth it!

Lori said...

Hope you had a nice weekend!

Pat said...

I think I am being bitten by the anxious bug also. Last night I dreamed that you got the long awaited phone call!Hopefully it won't be too much longer.

Michael and Carrie said...

I hope you had a fun trip to Atlanta. It sounds like you are getting so close, and I know you are beyond ready to get "the call!" I hope it is not too much longer! :)

Carey and Norman said...

I know how hard it is to wait. Of course, you've been waiting much longer than we did. I think knowing you are getting closer makes it harder too. I will keep you in my prayers for news soon.

Have fun this weekend and enjoy your time with the boys!

Rachel said...

the anxious feeling with me started a month after application! i'm so excited to follow your journey when it's your turn to write about a beautiful new daughter. you've been a wonderful support to me!

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