I talked with my coordinator again. Our poor coordinator was trying to get ready for a business trip but she wouldn't leave until she had an update for us. She insisted the director of the program call Moscow on our behalf and figure out what was going on with our potential referral/travel. (Have I mentioned how much I LOVE our coordinator?!?!) The news wasn't good. Evidently, our region doesn't want to give out any more referrals until the agency gets reaccredited. Sooooo, best case scenario, our agency gets accreditation and we can travel in late October. Worst case scenario...I don't even want to think about it.
I was so disappointed by the news. I think over the past few days, I've gone through an abbreviated version of the 7 stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining...and finally acceptance. Surprisingly enough, I'm now okay with this news. Of course it's not what I want, but there is absolutely nothing I can do (other than pray for accreditation to happen ASAP) to change the situation. And I keep reminding myself that this time next year, she'll have been home for a long time and this will all seem like a distant memory.
My main fear now is that the second trip will be during Christmas and I'll miss Christmas with my boys. But I refuse to even think that far ahead at this point. We'll cross that bridge when/if we get there.
I did tell my coordinator that I really don't want to hear any more estimates on when we should travel. For 6 months we have been hearing estimates on when they think it will happen. So we've had these expectations dangling in front of our faces, just kind of teasing us with hope. No more. I'm not going to try to plan our schedules around the possibility of traveling. I don't want any more information until it is official.
In the meantime, the boys start their fall break on Thursday of this week. They have 2 1/2 weeks off from school and we plan on having a ton of fun. And then it will be time to think about Halloween and all of the celebrations that go along with it.
Off to pray for accreditation!